Part 2 of 3
One day I will be brave, I thought to myself. I am going to tell people if you do not like who I am, go, keep looking for someone that will conform to your idea of who you want them to be. Because, I can not conform to what other people want me to be. I can only be who I am! Me! I like me, and I am going to be who I am. I am going to be true to me. I am not perfect I do not pretend to be perfect. My goal in life is only to be me, and my competition in life is with myself. It is not with anyone else. I struggle and strive to be better than I was yesterday. I would like to think when I go to bed at night and when I wake up in the morning that I can be kinder than I was the day before. Life is short you hear this statement all the time. Then why? Would I want to spend the life I have left on this earth like everyone else? Why would I want to be like everyone else? That has never been a goal of mine. To fit in, fall in line and be like everyone else; all because someone else wanted me to be that way.
If you dare to ask them, why do you want me to be like someone other than myself? They look at you like you have ten heads and you just asked the worst question in the world. I now find it much easier in life to say; hello I am Wendy, if you are looking for me to be like anyone else keep going, keep looking do not stop here. Do not say to me I want you to be my friend.
Friends like you for who you are. They do not give you a list and say, I want you to change everything about yourself that is on this list come back in a week or two when you have my wish list completed. I will let you know if you need to change anything else before we can become friends. This does not work for me and I know it would not work for the people that I am friends with. I value my friends for who they are. For their uniqueness and what we value in our differences. We do not ever say I want you to be like who! Does this person even exist, is it only a figment of the imagination or an illusion?